Father in Heaven,

I am so over it.

I’m done.

Finished.

I don’t think I can do it anymore.

What is happening?

Why is this happening?

I’m not blaming you.

I’m lost. Searching. Trying to find my way. Trying to find your way for me.

I haven’t asked you about it though.

I’ve been sinking and searching.

I’ve been floating along without a direction.

I’m at the mercy of the wind. No rudder. No sail. No compass.

I know you are my compass. Why haven’t I been using it?

What the heck is my problem?

At one moment I desperately want to know where to go, and at another I could care less.

Where?

Why?

Confusion.

Depression.

Apathy.

Help me Lord. Help me out of this funk.

Bring me back to you.

I want to desire you.

I want to grow our relationship.

Help me Lord. Please.

Crack open my heart.

Flow into me and fill me up.

Amen